completely disgusted!

We have BED BUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All of our family has been getting bitten for a month or so now, we've thrown out beds and cleaned bedding. Doctors that have seen the bites have all said they aren't bed bugs. Then we found our 1/2 bath covered in carpenter ants and thought we had the problem figured out. We cleaned again and sprayed everywhere for the ants.

But we were still getting bitten. Tonight my landlord told me it was bed bugs and pretty much said it was are problem. While sitting on the couch I felt itchy everywhere and was going insane. So I finally pulled out the couch to take a look behind it...and along the seam on the back of the couch was the spots that I saw online that were the fesses, or blood spots from the bugs. And even worse, bugs themselves! The first thing I did was get a glass jar and put some of the bugs in the jar so I can have them looked at to see what they were, convinced that bed bugs were not visible to the naked eye.

After cleaning everything up from behind the couch and vacuuming up as many of the bugs that I could, I got online again and looked up more information on the bugs and saw that what we have ARE BED BUGS!

It's so embarrassing!!! I'm ashamed to tell anyone because I was convinced that they weren't. When the problem first started I was open to the idea and knew that it didn't mean we were dirty. But now that I've said it wasn't, I don't want to admit they are. The bigger problem is my landlord, but that's another story for another time.

I don't know what to do! We can't afford an exterminator and how do you live with 3 kids and have to have everything bagged up for months?

Right now I really need a real estate deal to go through! The best solution would be to buy almost all new things to put into a new place and treat the things we need to. Then gut this apartment for the landlord and clean everything to make all the bad we've done up to him.

I just wish that for once in my life something would go right. I have faith in this real estate thing, but I keep getting road blocks in my way. And I have to make this work to pay my mom back for what she has invested into our future. We deserve to do something this amazing and to live better than this! I'm ready to make this work, now if life would just give me something to work with instead of against.