a call

So, I've been spending all this time trying to work him out of my system and every day it gets a little easier. Just blocked him on fb so I couldn't look him up and stare at his picture. Then as I'm walking outside on my break this morning, I think to myself, "yep, at rock bottom, he's gonna call". I take out my phone and have 2 missed calls, one from a number I don't know. Nervously I called the number back, expecting it to be a bill collector, I have the phone half off my year so I hang up cuz no one was answering, then there was his voice saying hello. He drives me crazy! He told me that was his new number, a disposable phone and he was back in town. Told me to call him tonight and he'd make puddles. All day I was just happy. I told a few people that he called, without getting detailed, just needed to say it out loud. But I was surprisingly not as crazy about him as I normally am. Maybe I'm starting to get it under control? I was wondering how long he'd been back and where he's living. So tonight I called him when I put Kat to bed and he was doing something with his U-Haul which makes me believe that he just got to town. Which makes me wonder why he called me as soon as he got back to town. He told me he would call when he was done with that, I told him I had to pick Pete up at midnight. So at 10:30 when he still hadn't called I called him and told him that I think he just likes to torture me. He said no, he liked to make puddles sometimes. He was stuck where ever he was cuz his car is in the shop. So he said he'd get a hold of me tomorrow. I don't even know how I'm gonna be about it. Like will I be my standard freak out, checking my phone every chance I get? Or will I actually be cool and not blow his phone up when he doesn't call me? I hope that I can be non crazy and be cool about the whole thing.

But really, I think that right now I'll be okay. But once I see him, all bets are off. Just hearing his voice makes me all wet. Can't wait to see what's gonna happen...