amazing

I love Pete, I will never stop. But how I feel in the moment and day, the strength of that attraction has a very unusual point of variation, Chris and sometimes Roger. Whenever I talk to Chris, I'm more open to Pete being close to me, sexually. At first I thought it was a guilty conscience. But after the last two days, it's when I can talk to him and Pete knows and is okay with it. It always means that he is in need of some green, but oh well, it gives me a chance to talk to Chris.

Now I'm still really hurt by Chris living with another chick, but I always knew I would never be his main gf, I still don't openly admit that I was one of his 'girlfriends'. I know he probably was as focused on all his girlfriends as he was me, but sometimes it was just a bit much to make me just another one. I miss him so much and wish that things had turned out differently sometimes. Meaning, what would've happened if Pete hadn't come back? But I'm 99% sure that Chris would've hurt me long ago if Pete hadn't come back to me. I need to tell you more about Chris. That is coming soon.