conflicted

Every day that goes by, I feel more and more conflicted about the status of my relationship. Between the feelings I still have about last year and the day to day things I'm seriously ready to let him go.

Sunday night he went off over nothing, seriously, don't even remember what started it. He accused me of quitting my job at the daycare, even though he told me several times before I was fired that he would completely understand if I did quit and would support me. Not to mention that I wouldn't have gotten unemployment if I had quit! What a fucking jack ass!!!! Then he went on to accuse me of still talking to Roger and telling me that my real estate stuff was a joke and a waste of time. He started the whole thing by saying he was ready to leave, run away from me and our family. I told him that I was right there with him, but running the opposite way. I didn't do any begging or crying for him to stay. He told me that he was planning on leaving me while I'm in Vegas. I told him to go for it. I did cry, but only because I really do love him and don't want to break up on bad terms. I just don't think he knows how to civil. That he doesn't think it's possible to have a mutual break up and to be on good terms with the other person.

Every day there is something that pisses me off, rubs me the wrong way or just shows how he hasn't changed one little bit. He constantly thinks that I'm cheating on him.