Emotional fight

I'm still trying to figure out all my feelings and emotions when it comes to Pete. At one time I would've told you that he is the love of my life and I want no one but him. Then when all the shit happened last year and we were broken up for a while, I found ME again. I realized how much I love ME and how much I missed being ME. I also had a really deep bond with Chris and Roger. It was a different form of love with both of them. They were both just people that helped me feel alive and how special I am.

Then after Pete and I got back together I've had a constant emotional battle. I don't want to quit being myself, but many days I have a reminder of how he kills that part of me.